Saturday, August 18, 2007

A story of Faith by a young man

Eleven years ago, I was convinced that life was naturally cruel and that God would only help you up to a certain point in your life and then it's all up to you whether you survive or not.

I still have it fresh in my mind and heart everytime I wanted to recall, what I had to experience during that certain phase in my life. That was the time that had made me realize, life is not at all fair, and that prayers, no matter how hard you mean them can all easily come to waste because of life's cruelty.

Yes! this was how I felt 11years ago. It was another ordinary day for me when I just learned that my life long dreams(these were the dreams that gave me hope for years and had given me strength to push harder for a better future) will never come to pass. What is more disheartening fact for me was that I had no one to turn to, both my parents were busy with their own respective share of personal problems. Couldn't keep up with my long time friends either, as they seemed to have gotten what they wanted for their careers and future plans.

See, at that point in my life. I thought I had nothing else left in me to live for. With no one else to turn to, and worst of all, I couldn't see any hope at all to cling on.

What a very frustrating thing to know that the very kind of life you have been trying to escape from will not ever let you go, and you will have to remain in that same misery then stay there for good. The only thing that kept me going at that point was the same single reason I had always held on to, it was the only reason in my mind that always told me, I had to go on no matter what.

That one single thing was my "faith". I knew deep down in my heart, God must be real and he is watching.

For the next few years, I battled life on my own. Inexperienced to being totally independent all of a sudden, I worked from one job after another, experiencing every awful and unexpected situations all on my own, counting all those depressing days and nights(when will all this suffering end I kept on asking), wondering why should I deserve such a life. Still, I had no other choice but my only single source of strength, it was my faith.

After 6years of struggle, experiencing every difficult situation, and having developed severe illness caused by too much depression and stress, I suddenly started to wonder, how could I possibly still be surviving all of these?

On the seventh year,
. . . just getting back from a year long illness which I then found out was brought about by all the emotional distress I had to go through, not knowing what to do next, I decided to apply in a very humble and small company for a minimal pay(just so to start with temporarily, was what I had in my mind then).

In 6months time, I have been assigned to a better project at the company which eventually lead me to a different working environment(that was where I received the biggest blessing in my life, the one big plan that God had made me wait for). This was when I finally met my lovely wife.

For the next couple of years, I had turned to be the consistent top grossing income earner at that company, then I got married. It was the beginning of a new life which God had planned for me.

Now at this time, I just recently started a business of my own while working as a consultant for another company. I and my wife have been blessed with a very smart and healthy boy and then a new baby girl is coming right up in a few months time.

I hope this story serves to be a blessing to anyone who maybe needing faith because of some situation they currently are into.

Matthew 17:20He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."

Luke 17:6He replied, "If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, 'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it will obey you.